One symptom of bipolar disorder is racing thoughts. Here is my interpretation of how this symptom effects me.
It’s like an angry swarm of bees inside of my head. Constantly moving and creating noise. The thoughts jump in and out like a slide show. One after another after another. Over and over again. It doesn’t stop. It doesn’t let up, it just keeps cycling. On repeat. Usually none of them are good thoughts. Most of the time the thoughts are completely unrelated to each other. I jump tangentially from one to another. It’s almost as if there is a loss of control. But what if I told you, I was never in control in the first place?